Why I don’t offer spiritual readings anymore

For a long time, I had a complicated relationship with spiritual readings.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m a BIG fan of them. I actually still use them in my work as a therapist (more on that in a second).

In fact, I think they play an important role in personal development and working with your ancestors and spiritual court to break lineage patterns beyond what’s in our consciousness.

When my spiritual gifts awakened, reading energy came back like I’d been doing it forever (bc I have across multiple lifetimes) and then I eventually remembered how to divine through tarot. Astrological knowledge is also making its way back into my awareness, and it’s been super cool to see it all unfold (it’s uncanny how much I know and the patterns I see without having “formally” studied it).

When I first started doing readings years ago, it was thrilling to help people in this way. But I quickly grew frustrated bc I’d leave every reading wanting to say more - because I could see so much more than I could say in 60 min - and knowing that I could help more.

I wondered if that was my ego, and whether or not I needed to put it in check.

One person can’t be everything to everyone and even if I could see more, it didn’t mean that it was my place to say more. But it all felt so incomplete, and like I was out of integrity with who I was and how I wanted to work my magic.

And then I started digging around my birth chart, and it all made sense.

I’m meant to go deep in all I do. 

I’ll spare you all the astrological jargon, but I will say that, in my birth chart,  the planet of deep transformation (Pluto), is in the house of deep shadow work (12th house), and in the deepest sign of the zodiac (Scorpio).

When you put it all together, it emphasizes someone with, and who can facilitate, profound psychological and spiritual depth. 

I felt so validated by this because I do love going deep in my work. The heavier the emotions and the more complex the layers, the more at home I feel.

And just to be clear, it’s not some kind of voyeuristic fascination with darkness. I’m not engaging with emotional depth to indulge in others' pain, but rather as someone who’s called to it with purpose and integrity (at one point, I considered doing death doula work, but that’s on hold for now).

I knew that reading was part of my work, I just hadn’t yet figured out how to weave it in.

I went back and forth for a while, offering them as a standalone offering. They were meaningful, yes, but something always felt incomplete. Fragmented. Like I was giving someone a single page from a much deeper book I was meant to read with them, not to them.

Eventually, I stopped trying to compartmentalize the spiritual and the therapeutic. I let them bleed into one another, not as an add-on, but as an integrated part of the healing.

Now, my couples and families receive ancestral and astrological readings at pivotal moments throughout our work. Instead of a one-and-done thing, these moments become portals: doors we walk through together, again and again.

What I’ve found is that the deeper you know someone, the deeper the reading and connection with their spiritual court can be, and the stronger the support is. It’s like my clients have an entire treatment team made up of forces behind the veil and me, here earthside, helping them walk it all into form.

Readings are still powerful allies in personal transformation, I still get them myself!

But there’s something about how EYE am meant to work with this tool that’s unique to me.

I’m so grateful to have found my way back to it, not just as a reader, but as a guide,  and my clients (and their transformations) are all the more potent because of it.